I think because of who I am outwardly, a strong, physically fit, dominant alpha male. Has in part created who I am inwardly or sexually. A submissive, cuckold sissy bitch that dreams about, fantasizes about and beats off to being made into a faggot. Having men use me while calling me dirty names like sissy, faggot, bitch and even the n-word. When a woman is involved she’s watching me gag on cock, swallow cum and my ass rammed. Again with them verbally encouraging my sexual degradation or themselves using a strap on to fuck me.